Jefrma

:blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: :blackice: :blackrose: I could say things are better now, ya know like after my brother passing away, but last evening really wasn´t it :( I dunno what happened, honestly! The day had begun grey coloured from my pov but it hadn´t been misarable or sad in anyway. It was probably around 7 or 8pm when I started talking with two my friends via MSN, chatting and I didn´t feel bad, but in some point the bottle of Jägermeister I had bought earlier, started to get empty too fast and

:blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: :blackrose: So early today my brother´s coffer came back home. Now it has to wait till saturday (funeral) and after that it´s time for my brother to turn into ashes as his wish was. And which will be done to both my mom and me when our time comes. Unfortunately it´s been so hard for my father, my brother´s stepfather, that he wasn´t able to join me and my mom, when we left this morning to escort my brother from the hospital back to our hometown. Instead, he left to our family´s cabi